Have you ever revisited something that hits you differently?
Something that you’ve always known and thought you understood, all the sudden catches you by surprise.
That’s how I felt when I listened to this message on Sunday. The love of God was something I thought I always knew about. I know He loves me, that He cares for me but when I heard it this time it impacted me in a different way.
See I always thought about the love God has for me, His unrelenting, overflowing, all consuming love, but I never thought about how I can love others in the same humble way.
I didn't think about how His love for me should be flowing out through my words and actions.
As soon as I wrote the first half of this email my next interactions with people were dismissive, opinionated, and argumentative. That behavior caught me by surprise and at the end of it I was mortified by my actions and words. This was not the kind of love I wanted to show. In fact it was not love at all.
But facing my behavior caused me to be more aware of the way I carried myself, to be more conscious. I also noticed that the main root of my responses was that I was not being a listener. Instead I was saying anything to be heard which was pointless at the end and not at all how one should build relationships. The message I was giving people is that their thoughts and feelings were irrelevant to me and that's not how I want people to feel after an encounter with me.
In the end I have learned that everything is a process and there will be some moment when you will need to apologize. So be sure to always give yourself grace, when changing the certain things in your life and don't forget to take a break and reset every now and again.
What about you? Is there anything you’ve struggled with recently that you are trying to improve on? Whether it’s your actions, your passion, or business hit reply and please share with me. Remember you are not alone on this journey.