What urgency calls you to your one love?
What shape waits in the seed of you
to grow and spread its branches
against a future sky?
The second week of Elul, the moon growing into her silvery fullness, may bring us a sense of urgency to dive in more deeply. Resisting my addiction to perfection or trying to do Elul "right," I have labeled this week: Week of Self-Care and Forgiveness.
But banish the thought that this means taking the easy route! Rather than indulgence, it means training oneself to stay awake for the ego's tricks of keeping us feeling ashamed or bad about ourselves. That is never Spirit's purpose!
Much harder to stay in self-love, caring for ourselves as if we were our own only child. Much more difficult to stay in unbroken rapport with a loving, forgiving God who brought us into being in order that we might serve what the Hassidic masters called tzorech gavoha, a higher need, the life and health of Her creation.
What tricks does my ego play on me to keep me from my truth, my power, and my fullness of being?
How would I be different if I allowed myself to believe that God personally loves and forgives me at this very moment?
What urgency calls me to my one love, to my clear and singular passion?
Rabbi Tirzah Firestone, PhD, is an author, Jungian therapist, and the founding rabbi of Congregation Nevei Kodesh in Boulder, Colorado. She was ordained by Rabbi Zalman Schachter Shalomi in 1992 and is a leader in the international Jewish Renewal Movement. She served as Co-Chair of Rabbis for Human Rights, North America (now known as T'ruah: The Rabbinic Call for Human Rights.) Widely known for her work on Jewish feminism and the modern applications of Jewish mystical wisdom, Firestone teaches nationally on Jewish ancestral healing and the common boundary between ancient Jewish spirituality and modern psychology. Her most recent book is"Wounds Into Wisdom: Healing Intergenerational Jewish Trauma." For more about Rabbi Firestone, go to www.tirzahfirestone.com